Woot! So today is day one and I am actually motivated! I have been feeling nothing but fatigue and laziness and I didn’t get out to the store to get the food I needed before the big “snow storm.” I put snow storm in quotes because I live in Virginia and we go into a state of emergency when we have flurries out there. I wish I was kidding. So because there is 2-3 inches of snow outside, it is pure pandemonium and I will not chance going to the store until tomorrow. Being from Michigan (and they are really being snowed in this season), this is nothing to me. But because others aren’t used to it, I will not risk running into those folks trying to drive on the roads today. I live in a place where people have a hard time driving in sunny weather. But I digress.
So I am stoked to FINALLY make a change that will help me with my addiction. Let me tell you how bad it has gotten in the last couple days, we ordered pizza and I decided to get a 2 liter of Coke. I know, Devil’s piss right? I am not shi%%ing you when I say I drank almost the WHOLE 2liter that night.:( Yah, I said it. BIG ashamed face. Not even to mention afterwards I even had a fudge bar and a handful of skittles. And I felt like CRAP! Like bona fide poo.
Funny thing is I started feeling awful drinking it, but I kept doing it! I kept going for more and more because I was feeling more and more thirsty. And I still went and had even MORE sugar. What was I doing? I had mini convos in my head saying STOP, this is a binge and it is ridiculous but I just felt I needed it. I do not get like this often. Usually I do not even keep pop in my house (pop is soda for you folks that don’t know what pop is) but to me it is like crack! I can go without it for a long time, one drink and it is a constant need for the next fix. And in my case I didn’t need to rob my kids’ piggy bank, it was in my own refrigerator.
I felt ashamed the next day when my man opened the refrigerator and saw it was almost gone! I wanted to say it wasn’t me, but we all know it was. This is coming from the girl who one time fiending for pop SO badly I climbed on top of my cupboard and took down a COLLECTORS Pepsi can, popped it open and DRANK IT!! Seriously, who does that?? Look guys, I am gonna keep it real in this blog ok? I won’t sugar coat it (ooh sugar, I want to coat it in sugar!) this is the real deal. For those of you reading this, if this help you, motivates you to make a change, even if it is just ONE person then I feel good in writing this all down.
I went to bed fairly early last night, it was around 11 but I went to bed about 9:45pm. Since Sass had a snow day today I didn’t get up until about 9.
MOOD-Moderate, short on patience, not the happiest fry in the box.
ENERGY-Felt ok, tired, not feeling fully alert.
MOTIVATION-to work out? Low, to start this detox, high
WORKOUT-Jillian Michael’s Ripped in 30 Level 1
So I took my before pictures, my weight and measurements. Wanted to see if I lose anything at the end of this. It is not my goal but come on, who wouldn’t want to lose some pounds?? Summer is coming, I have some to lose!
I think it is because my mind KNOWS I am detoxing I am craving tons of food. Even foods I don’t even eat, like fried foods. Fried pickles more specifically. I started to get a headache, it could also be from no caffeine. On the 21DSD you don’t have to stop drinking coffee or tea but I did so I can gauge an accurate assessment of my energy levels without stimulants. I started to get real tired so I took a nap. This is also common for me. I feel after sleeping ALL night I need a nap. This is serious fatigue.
So, at the end of the day I had bad cravings. I wanted to go and squirt pure honey into my mouth and call it a night. My headache came back so I just drank even more water and I went to bed.
Hey, 1 day down right? 🙂 20 more to go.