Yup, I said it. I have a problem. But they say admitting you have a problem is half the battle. I am not really sure who “they” are, or how credible they are, but let’s just pretend “they” are on to something.
I have been battling food for the last couple years. It is kind of like once you are made aware of something, choosing to ignore it just weighs heavily on your shoulders? Once I started really learning what was in our “food” and how I should probably be eating, I became aware. And when I didn’t follow it to a T, I would start to feel guilty. So I have been making changes, slowly, but making changes.
I am a mother to two little sweet hearts, Sass (6) and Sprout (3.5) and I make sure they eat well. Though I didn’t always think about myself the way I did them. That is all changing. Right now I am about to embark on probably the hardest food lifestyle change, the 21 Day Sugar Detox. I have gone gluten free before and also went on an almost Paleo diet (I say almost because there are some things I did eat, like black beans, quinoa, dairy (some) and peanut butter) but other than that I ate the same. But food can be like crack to me, and once I “cheat” I can easily fall back into my bad habits. Eating Pizza and drinking pop. Candy, chips-things I haven’t bought in a LONG time. And I knew what I was doing was not good for my health because I felt embarrassed having the stuff in my shopping cart. Especially if my kids were with me, even though I didn’t feed it to them, it bothered me. Should it have? Probably not. This wasn’t so much what others thought of me as I felt I was doing “wrong.” No one made me feel this way, but I knew I needed to eat better. I knew this wasn’t “food” and all I was doing was making this down in the dumps, fatigue, grumpy me even more prevalent. I knew I should work out again, it gave me energy but I just wanted to sleep all the time. I grew more unhappy with the way my clothes fit me and I had to wear the same pair of jeans because none of my others fit me anymore.
Now, I am not what you’d call obese, or probably over weight by a lot of people’s standards but I knew I was unhealthy. I FELT it, I looked it and my mood reflected that. So I knew I needed a change, something to jolt me back to the land of the living and I found it. I found something that I thought would help me not feel so tired all the time. It was just the thing, the 21 Day Sugar Detox.
Now I have done gluten free before and I felt amazing. And to clarify, I do not mean I ran out and bought the “gluten free” versions of stuff like pasta and breads. In fact, that stuff is just worse for you than wheat! So I thought, I can do this. I can do this. I can cut out sugar too!
So here I am, taking the 21 day sugar detox challenge. I don’t want this to be something I did and go back to the bad ways of eating. I want to change, for good. Because I know how much better I can feel and how much more live I will become. The Walking Dead will now just be a show I watch every Sunday, not how I roam around this Earth.
So, it starts.